Wednesday, December 05, 2007


What's He want? What am I suppose to do? Why show me hurting people if I can't do anything about it? Why doesn't He do something about it? What was He thinking when He stuck me here? Why didn't He tell me what to do? Why does He persist in showing me so many things that are beyond my ability to fix? How am I suppose to live with what He's let me see? What was the point of it all? Why does He feel so in the picture, when from all appearances it's just God-less chaos? Why doesn't He stop people from being hurt? (Ok, not a fair question.) What is He doing? Was this part of the perfect plan or the allowed plan? And most importantly, why can't He speak audibly for a change?

What does the whole "won't give you more than you can bear" mean anyway? If I walked away from God tomorrow, you wouldn't shake your head at God saying He gave me more than I could bear. If it literally killed me tomorrow, you still wouldn't say God gave me more than I could bear. So what comfort am I actually supposed to get from that?

I don't ask any of this in anger. I just wish I knew the answers. I wish I knew what He meant by all this. Why did He let me know about bad things, if there was nothing that could be done to fix them? I don't get it. I just don't get it.

What on earth is He thinking? What does He want?


SLW said...

Anyone of active heart and mind must someday master the "be still and know that I am God" aspect of faith. He is capable of handling all this information, we are not. We have to trust him in all those areas where our knowledge, experience and power fall short. Or in otherwords, we discover how to put Micah 6:8 gets into practice.

Anonymous said... have to listen to the whole thing. :-)

( 9 minutes )it is good.
i don't feel like you have the time...but it i think you will like it. come on! just watch it.

hope little one feeling better.

Brother Marty said...

I've followed your blog for sometime now, and I'm sorrowful that you are sorrowful. In the deepest, most reprehensible moments in my life God has always been there. I didn't always recognize Him...but He's been there. He is there for you, dear friend. A perspective of surrender may be all that you can offer...but that is enough.

I pray for you, friend...deeply pray for you. I know that you will come out on top and post wonderfully inspirational is in God's timing. And in His mercy, and His grace. You will come out ON TOP!

In His name I pray.

flyawaynet said...

You prick my conscience slw.
"He hath shewed thee, O man, what [is] good; and what doth the LORD require of thee, but to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God? Micah 6:8
Thanks for referencing me to that verse.

flyawaynet said...

Brother Marty, thank you. I received your comment right after I finished posting tonight and I wondered if I owed tonights post to you and your prayers.
You're going to make a great Pastor, Pastor Marty.
Your new congregation just received a blessing from God.

flyawaynet said...

Nancy, I've officially watched all 9 minutes. Thanks for thinking of me when you found it.

She is doing better. She was able to go back to daycare today and didn't have any problems. She did great.