Thursday, September 17, 2009

I can, because He can.

How can it be all wrong and ok at the same time?

When you trust God.

Much has happened this week that leaves me just ripped up with sadness, questions, and helplessness. But here's something I enjoyed tonight:

I was ripping apart, I listened to my parents hurt each other over the phone. One too far gone with disease to realize what she was saying, the other too far over his head in things he doesn't yet understand how to deal with. And I broke. I wept the tears that twist your stomach, and make you clench your fist against the pain, it leaves you bent double as hurt simply consumes you. And yet I was ok.

There have been times in my life when I felt that hurt and the questions that came with the hurt were just too much to face. Doubt and fear added themselves to the hurt until the burden was unbearable. It's those times when you ask what God is doing, why is He doing this, why isn't He stopping this.

Tonight, even in a moment of utter grief I sat there fully hurting and fully trusting all at the same time. And somehow the miracle that is Gods grace, brought me through the hours on the phone dealing with a situation so far beyond my skills that I cannot even figure out where to start.

I've said it before, but I just want to say it again and again and again. As many times as it takes to get it through to some hurting person out there reading this message.

God is good.

Circumstances do not change how wonderful, how loving, how gracious and marvelous He is.
So while you and I don't understand why things are the way they are so often - trust Him anyway. He's there, He loves, He holds, He works. It may not be the situation you want to face, but regardless, God is still absolutely and positively who He says He is.

He will not change, He will not fail, He will not waver, He will not stop loving you with a love that is breathtakingly beyond compare.

Lean on Him, trust in Him, and hurt all over Him. He can handle it.

And I promise you this, if you do all that you can handle anything life throws your way. Just wait and see.

There is hope. There is always hope.

2 comments:

Terry said...

I admire your faith as you are going throught difficul times. You are in my prayers.

flyawaynet said...

Always appreciate the prayers Terry.

Funny thought you just gave me; I admire my faith too. Not in a "look how righteous I am" way, but in a "I can't believe God has given me faith"

The ability to trust right now makes me want to pick up my faith and hold it, gaze at it as a beautiful gift.

It's not something I mastered, but something given to me. Undeservedly so.
Further proof of how good God is to us.