I've been losing for a long time now, but tonight feels like the game is coming to an end and I will have officially lost. I've gone back and forth so many times with this struggle and tonight I'm wondering when you'll finally give up on me. People say you don't give up, but you do.
Tonight is scary God, because if I died tonight, I'm not certain what would happen anymore.
Please forgive me, and somehow help me get through this mess.