Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Are you overwhelmed?

Today an interesting thing happened. It rarely happens. But, I went to a friend and asked them to say something calming to me... and they did. They pulled out the Word of God, and magic happened. Last night mom called with the official report that finally drs agree that dad has cancer. Seeing as I sincerely loathed him most of my life, and I'm just now enjoying the freedom that comes from actually caring about him (whether it's reciprocated or not) I'm not sure how I feel about this. Then, after a couple of weeks of working a second job, and finally someone else being hired for the job, and trained for the job... well Monday morning was my first and day off. Then Monday afternoon the boss called and said he was firing the replacement and would I come back and train the other new lady. So, I went back to the 2nd job again at 3am this morning. I was tired and so it's a lot easier to overwhelm me when I'm tired. Especially if I'm mentally tired while I try and sort out whether I'm going to be sad about my dad's cancer. So I cornered a friend online and said "Hey, I'm overwhelmed, do you happen to know any calming words I could have right now?" She came back with a lot. Some didn't fit, but some were especially helpful. And I thought I'd share those with you guys.
First was Philippians 4:6,7
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus
The second one was even more powerful for me. It was Psalms 62:8
8 Trust in Him at all times, you people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. Selah
I can't think of anything that sounds more calming to me. "Trust in Him at all times you people" God's in control, every minute. No matter if I'm tired or confused or hurting or even angry. Trust in God. He's in control. Whatever it is, it's not up to me. It's not up to me.
"Pour out your heart before Him;" How often we need to do that! These problems and trials build up, and truly all we have to do is take them to the Lord. He wants US, all of us. We're so solemn when we come to Him. Honestly, God IS Holy, but we're NOT at least certainly not in comparison. So why do we come to Him with big words and trying to sound more holy than we are? Do we pray as though the fate of someone else lays in OUR hands rather than Gods? Do we pray because it's a "Christian" requirement? Or do we pray because we've got something on our heart, and we won't be satisfied until we tell Him?
"God is a refuge for us." Today, literally I wished I could find a rock and just crawl under it and hide from the world for awhile. And after the words my friend gave me from the Bible I did just that. I went to God and I crawled under the refuge of Him. I haven't completely let go of the burdens. But my load is definitely lighter. And I can blame no one but myself that His mighty refuge didn't calm all my fears. But what a relief it is to know I have that shelter, that refuge to run to.
Before I sign off, I wanted to point out one more thing about that verse.
"Selah" I know what it means, but went online for the official definition. It said - Selah ( Hebrew: סלה) meaning "pause, reflection", within the context of a prayer or psalms, is similar in purpose to Amen in that it stresses the importance of the preceding passage. Ok, I'm not a bible scholar by any means... but I just want to show you something. There are 12 verses in chapter 62. This verse I'm looking at is verse 8. You normally say amen at the end of the prayer right? Who knows, maybe the people that separated the verses and chapters apart did something wrong... but I think David (the writer of Psalms) did that on purpose because he felt the words of verse 8 were important. Verses 5-8 are all especially good. So, I'll leave you with them.

5 My soul, wait silently for God alone, For my expectation is from Him. 6 He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved. 7 In God is my salvation and my glory; The rock of my strength, And my refuge, is in God. 8 Trust in Him at all times, you people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. Selah

1 comment:

Linea said...

Thanks for your kind words on my site. I'm glad you were comforted by those words. I find a lot of comfort in the psalms. I go back to them over and over.