This weekend I was reading in Haggai and came across something that intrigued me.
2 “Thus speaks the LORD of hosts, saying: ‘This people says, “The time has not come, the time that the LORD’s house should be built.”
3 Then the word of the LORD came by Haggai the prophet, saying,
4 “Is it time for you yourselves to dwell in your paneled houses, and this temple to lie in ruins?”
5 Now therefore, thus says the LORD of hosts: “Consider your ways!
6 “ You have sown much, and bring in little;
You eat, but do not have enough;
You drink, but you are not filled with drink;
You clothe yourselves, but no one is warm;
And he who earns wages,
Earns wages to put into a bag with holes.”
7 Thus says the LORD of hosts: “Consider your ways!
8 Go up to the mountains and bring wood and build the temple, that I may take pleasure in it and be glorified,” says the LORD.
9 “You looked for much, but indeed it came to little; and when you brought it home, I blew it away. Why?” says the LORD of hosts. “Because of My house that is in ruins, while every one of you runs to his own house.
10 Therefore the heavens above you withhold the dew, and the earth withholds its fruit.
11 For I called for a drought on the land and the mountains, on the grain and the new wine and the oil, on whatever the ground brings forth, on men and livestock, and on all the labor of your hands.”
I've worked very hard for the last few months to get my house in order. And while I don't particularly feel as though I've put my wages into a bag with holes, these verses still made me think.
My church isn't run down, I think it's beautiful. But I wonder, by putting more effort into my church could I be bringing more blessing onto my home?
Now that things have settled down and I've almost completed the process to become a foster parent I've found myself with time on my hands. While you might laugh at the idea of me being bored and tell me to enjoy it while it lasts, for me, it's still something to get beyond. That's how I ended up reading the book of Haggai and thinking.
What does God think when my home is clean and His is not? When I plant flowers in my yard and leave His unattended? When I fix minor problems around my house but leave His faucet dripping?
I know all too well the verses about those that hear the word and don't follow up with some "doing".
I'm not the same person today that I was last week. Something in my heart has changed, something in my desires has changed. Tv shows that use to interest me have me impatiently waiting for them to finish. And while you might think that fixing Gods house and something changing in me are two different topics, for me they are one and the same. As I see God's hand working in my life, changing, fixing, and teaching, the more I want to do in return.
Last night something changed in my hand. I got home from church and I considered my hand and this morning the weakness that has been the biggest problem this week is gone.
Last night I prayed in tongues for the first time.
It's time to give back.