Saturday, March 21, 2009

Day 6 - Faith to be silent

If you have kids I'm sure you've had these moments at least 1500 times.
So forgive me if you disagree with my style.

But I've learned to ignore some of the questions.

My active questioners are 11, 8, and 4 years old. I've heard a LOT of questions and I'm not even a parent. I do see questions as the prime opportunity for learning and growth. That's why for the greatest portion of the time, I take their questions seriously and explain even the seemingly mundane.

But there are times when you pile into the car wearing your church clothes, holding your bible, and you hear the question "Are we going to church?"
"When are we going to go?" "Are you teaching our Sunday School class?" (keep in mind, I teach it every week)... some questions don't seem to need answers.

Often, riding in the car if I take a turn they don't expect I'm suddenly bombarded with "I thought we were going to...." I completely understand. It's just curiosity. And for the most part, every question is answered.

But sometimes - sometimes I want them to just be still. Not because I don't want to answer them. Not because I'm tired of the questions. But because I want them to learn to be still. To trust that if I say I am taking them to X, that, whether the scenery appears to be leading them to X that they can trust what I said.

And I realize, so often I'm that exact same way with God.

God says He's going to lead me into X and yet the money doesn't appear, or the tests don't seem to be coming out clear, or the permit request gets rejected. Instantly I'm full of questions, "but you said.." "this isn't how you get there...", "why didn't You?" "Where are we go...?"

I'm learning the faith to be still.

If He says we're going ... we're going. It doesn't matter what it looks like. It doesn't matter that for all appearances we're going the wrong direction. It doesn't even matter that God said "By His stripes ye were healed" and I'm still sick.

It does matter that my incessant need for answers, accepts that He's already given His answer.

It's not wrong to ask, to question, to be curious.
But if the answers to your questions determine your faith?
Well, that's not faith.

But your faith, is the substance of the X you haven't made it to yet. Silence can be the substance of faith when doubt pops a question into your mind. Silence says, "I don't have to have an answer. I already know. Because if God promised me an Isaac 15 years ago, then sometime, someway, somehow, an Isaac is going to come.

Be still. Be still and know that His word, His promise, His power is just the same as He said it was. Be still and wait. Trust, obey, wait and repeat.

It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the LORD.

Therefore I will look unto the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation: my God will hear me.


Anonymous said...

it is very uplifting to come here and read a new post on faith that is unique from the one before it.

looking at it from different angles.

flyawaynet said...

I'm glad you are uplifted by this Nancy. It's certainly done something in my heart to write them.

I admit sometimes I scratch my head wondering if I'll come up with 40 days worth, but then I just have to remind myself... "Have faith." ;)