Monday, December 05, 2005

Scary thoughts...

For those that haven't been reading the blog long, let me tell you what's been going on.
I went on a bit of a hiatus from blogging while I was working a 2nd job. I don't need a second job, I don't want a second job, as a matter of fact, I'd probably be willing to pay someone to TAKE my second job away from me. But, nevertheless, here I am stuck wtih a second job. It's a newspaper route. I really do enjoy the work itself, I just happen to already have a job so I don't particularly want this new one. But I can't seem to get out of it. I got into it originally a few weeks ago when someone quit without much notice. The boss (a friend) asked me to help him out until he found a new person. So, I started. He then hired someone, and I trained the new guy... then after getting him trained he worked one day on his own before he was fired. So I go back in again, and they give me another new person to train. I get them trained and they worked Sunday by themselves. Unfortuantely this morning at 3:21am my phone rings and it's to let me know that the new lady quit in the middle of the night and would I get up and come on in. So in I went again. So now I'm contemplating the idea that I might actually lose my Christmas days off and getting a bit discouraged about the entire idea. But as I was talking with my mother about the whole thing, she reminded me that God does everything for a reason. Which is scary. Because, the only thing I can see coming out of this whole thing is that I'm bringing in an extra pay check. So, that makes me question, why does God think I need more money? Is there something coming that He knows I'm going to need money for? (comments about Christmas coming aren't what I mean here guys). Still, it makes me wonder. If there's a reason for everything... what's the reason for this?
This one thing stick out in my mind though...
The lady that replaced me on Sunday, she brought her teenaged son with her to help with the Sunday load. And I remember as I loaded my car full of papers I remember the thought hitting me that I should invite the young boy to church. These kinds of thoughts don't strike me very often (I know what you're thinking!) so you'd think I would of paid more attention to it. But I didn't. I pushed it off, and I said maybe I'll ask him next week when I know him a bit better. Maybe he and I both missed out on something yesterday. Maybe God's disappointed in me today. Maybe, the entire excercise was so that I'd learn to obey God on the first prompt? I honestly don't know. I am probably going to be a whole lot more willing to follow the prompts of God next time when it comes to, well, hopefully anything.Oh well. Have you learned anything this year?

2 comments:

Dazzler's Domain said...

hey, I think you're doing okay anyway. I remember one time, I packed a Bible in my pocket (it was one of those little ones, just the NT)... for no reason I put it in my pocket. Went to the store, and while I was there, there was a man sitting on the sidewalk begging for food or money. I gave him my Bible, and he started crying. Said that was what he really needed. TRUE STORY!

So anyway, I followed my intuition from God.. it really does pay off in the end. And I think you do exactly that.

~Tera~

J. W. Poteet II said...

So... I know what you mean about God doing everything for a reason being pretty scary. It always seems like a day or two before something really difficult happens God tells me He loves me in a really wonderful way. The last time this happened I just asked Him why He thought I really needed to know He loved me just then and He assured me that it would become very important to me very soon. Two hours later my car died with a ruined engine. There are many times when God prompts us to do something and we don't come through for Him the first time. Fortunately, God's entire plan doesn't depend on us, He's just willing to let us help. It's like when I made cookies last week and the kids wanted to help. I didn't really need their help and it didn't really help, but I let them. Then when they didn't do things right, I took over that part. I think when God asks us to do things it's like us asking kids to help make cookies. So don't feel too bad. Yes, you could have done better, but God will work His will anyway, and God isn't surprised or that dissapointed that you can't make cookies.