Friday, March 30, 2007

I'm happy.

It almost seems unchristian to be this happy.

The biggest flaw in my happiness is the worry that maybe I really am too happy. One-Sided used a common quote recently in his comments here about how if you don't find yourself bumping into the devil every now and then you might want make sure you both aren't going the same direction. I've heard quotes like that all my life. And they always make me hope for a little bit of trouble in my life just so I'll always know I'm walking the opposite way of the devil.

The problem is, I've got a little bit of trouble in my life right now, and... well, I'm still happy. Doesn't that just beat all?

I've had more troubles before, especially when my hands acted up and that got my feathers all ruffled, but, now, after that, I can't help but think everything else will just fall into place. It might will take work, but it will fall into place. The bible says the steps of a righteous man are ordered by the Lord, and while I hate to presume to call myself righteous (ironically enough it seems self-righteous), I know that my steps are ordered. And so I'm happy. Because however things turn out, God was in it.

There are several issues that come up where I struggle because I want my own way in something, and I'm not 100% sure God is going to agree with me and I get frustrated. Even knowing Gods way is best, there are just some things I am willing to fight for, even to my own detriment. I'm foolish that way.

But this happiness, you just can't buy it. Most of you reading this right now, I know you, and I know at least some of your struggles and concerns. I wish, this happiness and peace were a thing that could be grasped and I could smear it all over your hearts.

I wish I could give you hope, and knowledge of Gods intricate working in your situations. Standing back from it all, it's easy for me to see God working in the situation because I'm at a distance. As much as my heart is invested in so many of your problems, I can see the plan at work, and take confidence in it. I can't wait to see where all the chips fall.

Psalms 16:5-11

The LORD is the portion of mine inheritance and of my cup: thou maintainest my lot.
The lines are fallen unto me in pleasant places; yea, I have a goodly heritage.
I will bless the LORD, who hath given me counsel: my reins also instruct me in the night seasons.
I have set the LORD always before me: because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth: my flesh also shall rest in hope.
For thou wilt not leave my soul in hell; neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption.
Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.

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