Friday, September 14, 2007

I hate this

He's being painfully kind.

He's spoken in unique ways all day long, He's sent scriptures, sent me to my own posts Trust Me and Surprise Me, God? He told me to ask of Him, something I've refused to do this last week. So I asked, in rude "prove yourself" kind of way, for the thing I thought least likely. Two hours ago I received it.

His vast promises leave me looking at my life in disappointment feeling as shabby as a child covered in dirt and stains, while He promises beauty and wonder. It doesn't fit what I know of me. But at the same time, I still resist the close fellowship I desperately crave, especially now that I feel Him again. I never want to go through this week again.

He's asked me to walk on despite the fear, told me to accept and trust. And I guess that's where it just sits now.

4 comments:

NaNcY said...

that is where it always sits...that is walking the walk. trust and obey.

it took me about thirty years to figure that one out and accept it. God is moving you right ahead.

put the lessons into practice.

NaNcY said...

read a great post called...


reviewing sabbath: the divine conspiracy

which is at...

http://dontcallmeveronica.blogspot.com/

NaNcY said...

by the way...sometimes i really really hate it.

Mikey's God Talk said...

And this is life...It is not measured by our victory rather how much we walk closely with God. He is willing and able wanting us to cry out to Him, ABBA, FATHER, I need you! He loves it when we do this. He walks beside us in the valleys as well as the mountaintops. Satan would like us to think differently, he is such a scumbag.