That's why I was surprised when I laid down to sleep and found myself wide awake. Not even a hint of drowsiness.
So I spent a good hour trying to talk myself into sleeping, then gave up and got up.
I watched an infomercial on a book with "more than 5,000 health secrets that the professionals don't want you to hear" then went to the computer for awhile and took care of some e-mails, then I shut the computer off and grabbed a book to read, watched a Cosby Show rerun, then a movie. I pulled out a sponge and scrubbed a bathtub I inherited with the house that still doesn't come clean (the bathtub, not the house), and then installed a toilet tissue holder, then went back to the tv and watched an I Love Lucy rerun.
It was now a little after 4am and I was still wide awake.
Finally, and with some frustration, I said, "Ok God, why can't I sleep?"
As clear as bell He responded, "Because you haven't prayed yet."
"What was I suppose to pray for?"
After a brief grumble that He could have told me this 6 hours ago, I began praying for Lisa. It wasn't even a full minute into it when I yawned. Then I prayed for Andrea (#2 now on our watch list) yawning even more. Then I prayed for my parents, then my pastor and his wife, and because of their daughter who is currently serving in our military I then ended up praying for our troops.
I wasn't even finished when I could hardly stay awake.
This post has a lot of details that probably don't interest anyone but me. But it has a moral to it that I wanted to post. So here it is:
I didn't have this relationship with Christ last year. My relationship with Him has gotten stronger, deeper, and more trusting. He's talking to me. Do you really get that? GOD is talking to ME. I'll be the first to tell you, I'm not anything special. But He's talking to me. I told Him I wanted more, I begged for it -
Do you have that? Do your conversations feel one-sided and stilted? Do you constantly come in with a need, then wander off to do your own thing still feeling somewhat aloof from the God who created you? Do you wonder at those talking about Jesus getting sweeter every day, and realize that you still think about God pretty much the same way you've thought about Him the last 5 years?
My pastor said this morning, that God is willing for you to have as much of Him as you want. Don't you want more? Don't you? I do. I've gotten a taste, and I see His willingness to give more than I ever imagined. He is good.
Ask Him for more. Ask Him. He'll never fail to give.