What a night.
God spoke to me at 2am.
I really, really like it when God actually speaks in such a way that even I understand it.
I got up this morning at 1am to go do my second job. I have a nearly hour long trip to make to a warehouse to pick up newspapers and tonight I spent the entire time obsessing and worrying about being re-baptized.
I'm very ... intense ... about the event.
And I was floored and broken when God revealed something to me. (And when I say "broken" it's probably the best "broken" I've experienced with such profound relief and understanding.)
I was just a couple of blocks away from my destination when He did it, so it made it ten times worse that I couldn't stop crying at what He revealed. - It's really hard to explain why your all soggy just to pick up newspapers.
Do you remember this post?
I wrote it exactly one month ago today. But at the time I didn't know what it meant and I was praying for an interpretation of it.
Well today, driving down the road, stressing about the re-baptizism that I felt God wanted me to pursue I remembered that vision and the feeling of the water up to my chest.
And as clearly as if He had wrote it on my blog He said:
"I have baptized you in tears."
I wish I had words to tell you what it meant to me. I really do.