Loving others had nothing to do with you and your fears and insecurities.
Stepping out in faith had nothing to do with whether you might be embarrassed or fail.
Things you said were said with the other person in mind, not your own biases or frustration.
Your actions were full and free, with no hesitation due to the possibility of rejection.
What if you didn't accept that your past allows you to have those fears, biases, and hesitation?
What if you simply said, I'm going to do exactly what Jesus would do regardless of how I feel; and then you did?
I choose Jesus.
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.